In the night season….
"Night seasons" are what I call my darkest and most stressful times in life. I call them night seasons because I could not see what was ahead. Typically night lasts for a few hours, but seasons last for months. In extended seasons of darkness, what kept me feeling in despair was the very aspect that I could not see the end of the night.
I moved from Oakland, California to New York City to start graduate school in Public Health at Columbia University. The move alone was challenging and to make matters worse; I was dealing with the guy that I was seeing and how we would handle the distance. I was physically sick in my body (ultimately needing surgery).
I moved my life across the country in three suitcases. This, later will be my biggest blessing to date, but at the time it was without a doubt an incredibly difficult transition. I spent much of my time praying and crying. I missed my family, the breakup was painful, and school was intense. I was relearning academic material I had not viewed in years and new content at a very challenging school.
God in many ways comforted me through the people that I met and through excellent professors that were concerned about my well-being. During this season my prayer life was strengthened. I was an encouragement to other friends, even those who were not believers in Christ. I often meet with these friends, and we prayed together in between classes. I retreated to the bathroom and prayed in between breaks. I approached the administrators of my department and asked if I could start a prayer room on campus. Thankfully they saw fit to allow us to use a small room. This meant a bathroom stall was no longer my upper room. This transition, painful as it was taught me that God is good in all seasons. More importantly, it showed me, that I do not have to see the end of a thing to know that He is faithful. My friend Hannah sweetly reminds me that God is bigger than my fears. I have added to that statement “God is bigger than my fears, hurt, pain and regret.”
My favorite memory verse when I am in my night season is... “My lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.” Psalm 16:6.
I have a terrific friend by the name of Tutu who knows this is one of my favorite verses. All I have to do is text her this scripture, by this texted scripture - she knows to pray for me. She knows this verse means La’Shay is sending out an SOS.
I pray, friend, that you would have the support you need in your night seasons. Remember that although you may not have a physical person with you in your night season, you will always have the comfort of The Holy Spirit.
Prayer: Father, I do not need to see the light at the end of the dark season to know that You and You alone are God and You are good. You have never failed me and will never leave me. You are glorious in all Your ways and You without a doubt will show yourself strong in my situation. You will ultimately show Yourself strong in my life; not only for my good but for Your glory. In Jesus name, I pray...amen.